Friday, May 22, 2009

In Rememberance

A year ago yesterday on the 21st I experienced something else that no women wants to go through.... I lost our baby. I can't believe a year has passed since the miscarriage. It is an experience that is extremely hard to go through and your heart just aches.

Following the miscarriage, it took my hormone levels months to come back to normal and it wasn't until I went to London for my follow-up that someone seemed to start worrying why these levels were not returning to normal. Therefore, I was sent weekly for bloodwork to monitor these levels which returned to normal after approximately 3 months. That was a sigh of relief but..... shortly after that I noticed something odd, a lump in my breast. I thought it might have been related to all the hormone changes but in due time I realized that it wasn't.

After being diagnosed with breast cancer and still healing from the miscarriage I realized that our little unborn child saved my life! I truly believe that if it wasn't for loosing the baby that I would either have been but in a position that could have threatened the baby's life or mine or would have noticed the lump and just passed it off as being related to pregnancy. As hard as it was to heal, we realized that this baby was a gift from God and even though she or he was given to us for a short period of time it was long enough to give me the gift of life!

To baby Fulop, we love you, we miss you, and we know you are looking down on us from heaven!


1 comment:

  1. Sasha, I'm so sorry for your loss. I too have had 2 miscarriages (one at 16 weeks and one at 14 weeks). I have two healthy children now, but I always remember the two I lost and I miss them dearly. There is nothing more painful that losing a child. I do believe though that everything happens for a reason and your experience is no different. You are such a strong, loving woman and I enjoy reading each and every one of your blogs. You are an inspiration to all! Many blessings and prayers are coming your way.